The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
So I am 28 today. The big 28. 28 and single. Wow. Just yesterday I was 24 and fighting an early marriage. Just this morning I was 26 and broke an engagement because I thought I was in love with someone else. Just last year I was 18 and starting college.
Time just passes by and I am sad to report to the mothership that it just doesn't get easier. The silver lining is that nobody in office knows it's my birthday. I can't stand the fakes and the insecure with their obligation to wish me for my birthday. Man I hate work, the people are so boring and more messed up - even more than me! Petty, small-minded, immature, you know.. the usual. Never thought I'd reach that valley.
Some are cool, but then I don't think I see a long term working relationship with any of them. Just 8 months more and it's a new role. Time just doesn't pass by fast enough.
But I said good bye to someone I love - my best friend for the past 3 years, my support and my lifeline. I hope he gets a fat cow for a wife, would make my life worth living. Well what do you know, I seem to have a passive-aggressive, sadistic streak in me. Must be the German Classes.
So it's all good. And it's all bad. But then that's life. It's all bittersweet and dark - just like my favorite chocolate...
you need help. soon.
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